金先生，我今天睡的不好，吃了安眠药也只是睡了两个多小时就醒了。我觉得其实没必要吧，我梦见被迫站在演讲台前面念一篇事先写好的稿子，这篇稿子内容只有一个，就是要我和听众宣誓，宣誓的内容是“会一直喜欢你。”你全程一直站在我后面，穿着黑色的长袖T恤，盯着着我把稿子乖乖念完，好像我会随时跑掉一样，然后这个演讲的情境反复重复了三遍！！！就是以为结束了，然后又重头来过，再次站在演讲台前念稿子：我会一直喜欢金先生然后列举条例和论证blahblah。这个梦境为什么这么疯癫？
　　接下来更疯癫的情节是我在那里绘制什么图片作业，别人问我你去哪里了，我说不知道呢管他去哪里…然后你像那种3D全息投影一样忽然出现在我们的图纸上方，很“幽怨”的看着我，好像我做了什么违背诺言的事情，大家忙着解围，都说好啦好啦这不是在吗不要吵架啊…
　　You do know that we are fighting, right? Why would you do this weird dream to me? And you took the elevator in front of my elevator just trying to avoid being in the same elevator with me? Am I that scary?
　　Well I got two people asked me today if I believe in Gods..an Uber driver whose grandfather was a Chinese immigrant to Venezuela and he had been staying lonely in the U.S. for 7 years without any family; an alcoholic patient who was crying and calling me honey babe sugar sweetie yet feeling embarrassed to be sick…I will say, I don’t know. When I am doing well I guess it’s easier to say yes, but when things are not going to the right direction…then I don’t know. I told them that I don’t understand why God would like innocent people to suffer, from pain, psychologically or physically. I don’t know why God would give unconditional love to people who hurt others. I don’t think God picks sides, so why should I believe in anyone who is no different from the cold universe? They said you still have to trust in the good things, you still pick the good side you know…
　　可能是我今天故意讲英语，所以莫名其妙的收到了两大篇完整的英文杂志翻译，就很…无语。
　　我分享这些不是单纯因为喜欢你，更多的是为了善良的歌迷朋友们，不是因为你，如果是为你，其实根本没必要分享出去，我就自娱自乐不知道有多开心，还会怕虫子怕鬼怕病态吗？唉。
　　Anyway, happy Mother’s Day! To your mom and to you, who is just like my psychological “Mom” for all these years.